My DuMdUm World

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Very long never update le... Recently having nightmares... Nightmares about what? Nightmares about the past.

Si Wei and Nino recently told me that adeline is getting engaged. I can pretend I don't care and I can pretend it doesnt matter. But it does. It hurts me. It's killing me. After all, she was someone I truly did have feelings for.

Been having flu and fever on and off high fever for the past 1 week. Sometimes when I cough the phlegmn inside will have blood! Scary right? Not really for me. How I hope that this illness can end my suffering. Too bad flu don't have high casualty rate.

It's not like I cannot find a better person, it's just that whenever I think of being with someone, I think if that person is good to settle down with. Maybe I think that I am at that age want to find someone nice to spend my life with liao... But then the people that I think would be nice life partners... Like no progress with them one. Keep trying but not much progress. But then there are also people who are ready to accept me. But I don't think I want to spend my life with. But I don't know, everyone has their breaking point. Maybe I will give in soon too.

After all, its not always up to you in life. You just accept what fate gives u and u live with it.

(1) So Waddaya Think! 8:13:00 PM

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Where have I gone? I once stood tall and proud, ready for any challenge and to take on the world. Where have I gone? I'm beaten down and am worn out already.

Don't know if I have posted this post before, but this is how I feel recently. So depressing.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 12:57:00 PM

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Wow very sian, boss keep pushing me back ask me to work. T.T. I also feel I should work a bit. LOL~. Other than working at the table of course.

Hmm, dun think I dun know how it feels like to be poor. Like I said before, being poor is 1 thing. Being heavily in debt is another. I know how it feels. But money is also not everything. What you want to do is everything. Money can be used to solve a lot of troubles but at the core, at the very centre of everything you will realise. That ultimately true happiness does not come from money alone. It comes from other things.

Until you can understand this, you will forever be worried and troubled.

(1) So Waddaya Think! 2:32:00 AM